I do it to tap into my creative side again. I do it to take pride in what I do again. I do it to laugh. I do it to feel important again, like I offer something to this world.
I've had a pretty rough, storied past. Divorced from a lesbian after 10 years. Father of 3 kids of which 2 have a terminal disease and required me to move my life to Finland from the US. After the divorce, had a relationship with a woman who attempted suicide after she admitted she was a closet alcoholic with an eating disorder. And most recently, resigned from my job because of the negative emotions I was feeling with respect to not having a career. I was taking it out on friends and family and I realised there was only one way to fix that: quit. I didn't feel like I was offering my value, ME, to anyone and that starved me of life. I could no longer tolerate sitting at a desk all day long crunching P/L numbers looking at excel. It was a massive snore fest and I needed something new, something refreshing, something more ME!
Obviously, I have been beaten to the ground but I get up every single time. That's why I turned to Youtube. I would love Youtube to turn into a career for me but I don't want to focus on that. I want to focus on providing people who have been through ups and downs in life a feeling that "It will be ok". I would like them to realise that through my laughter, smiles, cheesy editing and childish humor in my video game commentary. I want to have a positive impact on people's lives.
That is why I Youtube
I've had a pretty rough, storied past. Divorced from a lesbian after 10 years. Father of 3 kids of which 2 have a terminal disease and required me to move my life to Finland from the US. After the divorce, had a relationship with a woman who attempted suicide after she admitted she was a closet alcoholic with an eating disorder. And most recently, resigned from my job because of the negative emotions I was feeling with respect to not having a career. I was taking it out on friends and family and I realised there was only one way to fix that: quit. I didn't feel like I was offering my value, ME, to anyone and that starved me of life. I could no longer tolerate sitting at a desk all day long crunching P/L numbers looking at excel. It was a massive snore fest and I needed something new, something refreshing, something more ME!
Obviously, I have been beaten to the ground but I get up every single time. That's why I turned to Youtube. I would love Youtube to turn into a career for me but I don't want to focus on that. I want to focus on providing people who have been through ups and downs in life a feeling that "It will be ok". I would like them to realise that through my laughter, smiles, cheesy editing and childish humor in my video game commentary. I want to have a positive impact on people's lives.
That is why I Youtube
