This example might sound weird but I think it works : single guys and girls who go to nightclubs just to laugh with friends and to dance the night away have fun and enjoy the evening whether they meet someone or not. Those that go specifically to meet someone probably don't enjoy 9 nights out of 10 because their goal isn't met.
Point being : stay true to yourself, do what content you enjoy and it won't matter if your channel blows up or not, you'll have had fun doing it. Make it all about the channel blowing up and you might be left unhappy.
Easy for me to say, because I absolutely get it. Why shouldn't we want our channels to blow up? No harm in wanting that, but maybe it isnt healthy for that to be the sole aim?
Anyway, best of luck, I hope you have every success