yeah, I've studied them
like, I know what colors look good together and all that, I just always think that people are going to hate them on me (happened in high school with black lipstick, only for it to now be a hot trend *eyeroll*), or dislike my makeup videos for some other reason. It's not that I don't know how to use color, it's that I have negative levels of confidence about people's reception of whatever I do.
Like, I know I make great outfit ideas, but I'm always dead certain everyone who sees me irl will say it's uglier than sin even if it's a super good outfit. I'm sure, by now you're saying "maybe youtube isn't the place for you" but it's for me to get out of that mindset.