For me, I just think it's morale to keep uploading. I have to be like one of the most unlucky people of 2017. I started a relationship on New Year's, only to have it end in heartbreak a couple weeks later. Soon after the adpocalypse happens and the whole Wall Street Journal vs YouTube incident, and because I don't make family friendly vanilla content, my average views went down by half and sub count slowed tremendously. And then my equipment breaks, and being the poor sap I am, I can't afford to replace it, and then immediately the day after, my legal guardian kicks me out of the house because of financial trouble, and my neglectful parents refused to take me back (they actually kicked me out the year before because I was having suicidal thoughts and went through treatment), so I was in legal custody of a judge. I was supposed to be in foster care, but because I got kicked out on a weekend when they weren't working, I instead got sent to live in a rehabilitation type shelter for a week filled with violent people of criminal records. In fact, one person even broke a coffee mug just to use the shards as a make-shift weapon. And you couldn't use technology there, either. It was a prison-like environment. I went to court and my parents decided to take me back, and I eventually did get money for new equipment, but I was so emotionally drained to keep up a schedule. And then I started a new relationship. That one lasted for a couple months. Except they told me they had to call it off because they weren't comfortable with long distance. And now fast forward to this month, I'm turning 18 in 2 days, parents are gonna kick me out, and I'm moving into an apartment with a mentally unstable and overworked adult who told me their word is law and if I don't follow it, I can't live there. So it's like, I love uploading. I have so much fun doing videos. And it makes me happy having something up for the day. But I can never really maintain a stable upload schedule. And I tend to delete a lot of the videos I record, too, if I seem unhappy in them. I'm a comedian, so it's like, I want to keep up this funny atmosphere. ...Jesus Christ. I don't know how I ended up ranting about all this. xD