Symph
I'm a dude with a face and I know how to use it.
omg... we might need to chat about this in real time. My first 6 months on youtube? SAME DAMN THING. I'd get the vlogs going, I'd get into editing, I'd start picking at myself. I didn't like where I was looking in this section, I'm not real enough, I think I'm fake seeming, I'm too over the top, I act like a dork, I'm not cool enough, and on and on and on and on, I'd be EMBARRASSED of the vlogs. I'd put em up anyway, but then I'd purposefully not watch them, I didn't want to see my horribly embarrassing vlog.I have to this problem where, as I start editing, I start saying to myself, "This is crap, scrap it", this happens with every video I make and although i know why i can't seem to fix it.
The reason this happens is because I keep trying to be someone else in my videos, im unsatisfied with myself, i think im too boring, so i try to be like other youtubers in my video, but when im editing i see how "not me or them" it is and it makes me see it as bad. how can i fix this? it's really starting to effect my videos, as you'll see in the next one i upload (sometime this weekend)
Then I grew in confidence in time, got to where I could watch the vlogs back and be happy with them. I had this idea in my head "Well I'm finally where I wanna be as a vlogger, too bad I have so many embarrassing vlogs up" And still wouldn't watch the older ones. FINALLY, one day I was like "man, let's just see what the older vlogs were like" I watched them back? I loved them! I could see the things I was so bothered by before, but suddenly saw how they come off totally different when you aren't YOU. When you step away, and get objective, you can finally see how your flaws can actually be charming, it's just so hard to see it when you're right there making it, knowing it's about to be public, knowing it's about to be judged by the community. Just do your best, and TRUST YOU. That's all I know to tell you. I didn't do that, and felt alot of needless worry because of it.