I hate my channel

[TheBossman]

It sounds like you don't really have a passion for making Youtube videos. I don't think you'd need to leave the board but there's no point in forcing yourself to work on a channel you don't even like.

Well you are hearing wrong. I have a passion for making videos, I love doing it. I am just not good at it. Again I love the fact I have a channel, I just hate how much of a mess it is and that with the direction of my channel I do not really have any videos to make until mid August without scraping the barrel.

Or does the fact I want what is best for my family the reason you think I don't like doing it? Spending a grand on my channel to get what I feel would improve things could be spent on a holiday abroad with my family. Do I love my channel more than my wife and kids? No.

So to recap as you seem to not understand, I love making Youtube videos, I just don't love my videos. I could do better but to do that means being a worse parent and husband. I have a really good job opportunity starting tomorrow that will inevitably make my family want for nothing and do not want my selfishness to get in the way. That in no way means I do not love making videos.

To be what I want to be in my space would be at least 3 uploads a week with streaming on Twitch 3 times a week for at least an hour each time but preferably more. That on top of a highly demanding job and wife and kids means something is going to get neglected. I also want a grands worth of equipment as I have stated a few times now to make sure my streams and videos are the highest quality. How does this mean I have no passion?

 

[IsntChrisL]

Well you are hearing wrong. I have a passion for making videos, I love doing it. I am just not good at it. Again I love the fact I have a channel, I just hate how much of a mess it is and that with the direction of my channel I do not really have any videos to make until mid August without scraping the barrel.

Or does the fact I want what is best for my family the reason you think I don't like doing it? Spending a grand on my channel to get what I feel would improve things could be spent on a holiday abroad with my family. Do I love my channel more than my wife and kids? No.

So to recap as you seem to not understand, I love making Youtube videos, I just don't love my videos. I could do better but to do that means being a worse parent and husband. I have a really good job opportunity starting tomorrow that will inevitably make my family want for nothing and do not want my selfishness to get in the way. That in no way means I do not love making videos.

To be what I want to be in my space would be at least 3 uploads a week with streaming on Twitch 3 times a week for at least an hour each time but preferably more. That on top of a highly demanding job and wife and kids means something is going to get neglected. I also want a grands worth of equipment as I have stated a few times now to make sure my streams and videos are the highest quality. How does this mean I have no passion?

I'm picking up on some anger here. I got the vibe that you weren't too passionate about it because:

• You hate your channel
• You aren't motivated

But you say care about it and that's fine. I'll work with that.

You can create videos sporadically but your channel will suffer because of it. I know from experience. It's tough for me to balance work, my personal life, and Youtube. I'm sure it's even harder for people with children. Your channel can be a place that you put videos out on every now and then but if it's not consistent the channel will be a ghost town.

 

[xingcat]

It sounds like the type of content you want to make is too intrusive into your life and finances to want to continue right now. I'm sure that's incredibly frustrating.

Are you sure that there's no sort of less-intensive, lower-cost content you could make in the interim that would scratch the video making itch? There is a ton of content out there that doesn't utilize the best equipment or the most amount of time. It may not make you happy or interested, but it may be worth a shot, if you want to keep your channel active but don't have the resources for the stuff that you aspire to just yet.

 

[Pedals & Stuff]

Well you are hearing wrong. I have a passion for making videos, I love doing it. I am just not good at it. Again I love the fact I have a channel, I just hate how much of a mess it is and that with the direction of my channel I do not really have any videos to make until mid August without scraping the barrel.

Or does the fact I want what is best for my family the reason you think I don't like doing it? Spending a grand on my channel to get what I feel would improve things could be spent on a holiday abroad with my family. Do I love my channel more than my wife and kids? No.

So to recap as you seem to not understand, I love making Youtube videos, I just don't love my videos. I could do better but to do that means being a worse parent and husband. I have a really good job opportunity starting tomorrow that will inevitably make my family want for nothing and do not want my selfishness to get in the way. That in no way means I do not love making videos.

To be what I want to be in my space would be at least 3 uploads a week with streaming on Twitch 3 times a week for at least an hour each time but preferably more. That on top of a highly demanding job and wife and kids means something is going to get neglected. I also want a grands worth of equipment as I have stated a few times now to make sure my streams and videos are the highest quality. How does this mean I have no passion?

You say you have a passion for making videos.
Why?
If you like games...just play them as your time allows and be happy, no need to record it.
People saying youtube is their passion sounds so silly to me.

 

[TheBossman]

You say you have a passion for making videos.
Why?
If you like games...just play them as your time allows and be happy, no need to record it.
People saying youtube is their passion sounds so silly to me.

I play games a lot either way.

It's not my passion. I have a passion for it. It stems from it being a way to get away from my social anxiety that became crippling and motivated me to get this job that's caused me to need to stop. It gave me my self confidence back after years of life pushing it out of me. If I was making music or comedy or any other type of entertainment I am sure you wouldn't have put that though.[DOUBLEPOST=1467581548,1467581259][/DOUBLEPOST]

I'm picking up on some anger here. I got the vibe that you weren't too passionate about it because:

• You hate your channel
• You aren't motivated

But you say care about it and that's fine. I'll work with that.

You can create videos sporadically but your channel will suffer because of it. I know from experience. It's tough for me to balance work, my personal life, and Youtube. I'm sure it's even harder for people with children. Your channel can be a place that you put videos out on every now and then but if it's not consistent the channel will be a ghost town.

Yeah there's anger. I say I love doing it and your post pretty much said I was lying. You continue to do so in this post. I've explained several times why those two things you point out don't mean I'm not passionate and yet you still question me. Excellent.[DOUBLEPOST=1467581952][/DOUBLEPOST]

It sounds like the type of content you want to make is too intrusive into your life and finances to want to continue right now. I'm sure that's incredibly frustrating.

Are you sure that there's no sort of less-intensive, lower-cost content you could make in the interim that would scratch the video making itch? There is a ton of content out there that doesn't utilize the best equipment or the most amount of time. It may not make you happy or interested, but it may be worth a shot, if you want to keep your channel active but don't have the resources for the stuff that you aspire to just yet.

That's the problem I have though I don't want to be half my best when my best is not exactly spectacular in itself. It definitely is frustrating,

 

[Pedals & Stuff]

I play games a lot either way.

It's not my passion. I have a passion for it. It stems from it being a way to get away from my social anxiety that became crippling and motivated me to get this job that's caused me to need to stop. It gave me my self confidence back after years of life pushing it out of me. If I was making music or comedy or any other type of entertainment I am sure you wouldn't have put that though.[DOUBLEPOST=1467581548,1467581259][/DOUBLEPOST]
Yeah there's anger. I say I love doing it and your post pretty much said I was lying. You continue to do so in this post. I've explained several times why those two things you point out don't mean I'm not passionate and yet you still question me. Excellent.

Man up. Family first. If you don't have time to record your hobby...too bad, but life is more important.
If you'd have a music or comedy channel i'd say exactly the same...no need to record it if you don't have the time. Playing guitar makes me happy...I don't need youtube for that.

 

[TheBossman]

Man up. Family first. If you don't have time to record your hobby...too bad, but life is more important.
If you'd have a music or comedy channel i'd say exactly the same...no need to record it if you don't have the time. Playing guitar makes me happy...I don't need youtube for that.

I am not crying about it. I was trying to find a way to incorperate it all in one. What a c*nt I am for trying to add extra enjoyment to my life, to make myself happier. There is not once above where I do not put family first. The fact I nearly did even though it was in an inconsequential way (a grand is next to nothing in my wage now) made me put this post about potentially quitting or at least make a big enough change to my channel to ensure it doesn't happen again. I have never taken away from my family with Youtube in any way.

 

[Loki Doki]

boss dude. chill out. believe it or not people are trying to help you in this thread.

sadly you can't have your cake and eat it as they say. you have way too much on your plate to give youtube 100%, yup that sucks balls, but there is no way around it sadly

 

[IsntChrisL]

Yeah there's anger. I say I love doing it and your post pretty much said I was lying. You continue to do so in this post. I've explained several times why those two things you point out don't mean I'm not passionate and yet you still question me. Excellent.

Relax dude. Nobody is calling you a liar. I missed the part where you said you loved it at first but we moved on from that. You're getting real aggressive to people that are just trying to help you.

 

[PsySpy Gaming]

RL always takes precedence unless this is your actual 'job' which for most of us that isn't the case. And even then, RL will take precedence over that a lot of the time.

As far as motivation, I can't say much as I haven't had a ton of motivation myself lately. BUT, if you enjoy doing it then keep doing it. If you don't, take a break, enjoy life outside of the internet, play games for yourself that you don't have to share with anyone, spend time with your family.