I get inspiration for video ideas mainly through pop culture (not necessarily 2016's pop culture

) and current/past events. Sometimes I just think of something stupid I want to do and decide I'll plan on doing it. I vlog as a character and basically make an a** of myself. There are plenty of different ways to make an a** of yourself.
My inspiration to keep making videos stems a lot from a severe, lifelong social anxiety disorder. I'm fairly reclusive, am nearly agoraphobic and just have a hard time being around other people, let alone making an a** of myself online. I've only had my channel for 9 days and have almost given up several times due to several panic attacks. I want to keep going because making videos is a lot of fun, being my character is lots of fun (though I've been doing that offline for over a decade now

), and, most importantly, I'm trying to push myself way out of my comfort zone as a form of therapy.
Sorry if I went
too deep, I'm not Grace Helbig.