I have been a Youtuber since 2007 and recently I have been getting about 5 subs a day. That's quite a lot and a few time I have been recognized on the street. The other day I got an email from a subscriber detailing how she always thinks of me and considers me to be her BFF even though we haven't met.
I really want the money that comes with being a superstar Youtuber but I don't know about the fame and recognition part. It kind of scares me that people I don't know desire to be close to me emotionally. I am open on my Youtube channel but in real life I am an extreme introvert, I never want to be noticed, don't like meeting new people, etc.
I love making my videos but I'm kind of scared to get more subscribers and fans. Right now I host a MeetUp group for my subscribers and it always feels weird that I meet people who know all about me and I don't even know their names or that they exist. Does anyone feel this way. It's kind of scary. I don't want to disappoint people who say they love me but I also don't want to compromise who I am- which is an introvert, happy to be alone.
It would be cool to have a big audience, but I don't really want to become a celebrity.
I don't know if anyone knows Enzo Knol, he's a popular Dutch YouTuber and he announced having a meeting with his fans 2 days before the meeting and he expected a few 200 people to show I think but ended up with over 4000 people.
There was no security or fences and he had to be taken away by the police for safety.
I definitely don't want something like that to happen to me.
I am but I'm more than happy to interact with my supporters via comments, social media, just online in general, in person I couldn't do it. Ironically my most important goal is building a community over money or fame. I'm not fooled by the illusion that 1 day people will figure out my identity, could be tomorrow, could be next year, could be in 100yrs even. When that time comes I'll figure out a way over the hurdle.