I had 3 failed YT channels before this one. None had more than 100 subs and 10k views. I worked on each one of those on average for a year. That's 3 years, that's 10% of my entire life, where those channels consumed a ton of my time and headspace and hopes and dreams. Heck, even this current channel would probably end up the same if I didn't make radical changes to everything, from videos themselves to the entire system required to make them visible and recommended to people across the platform.
What you think and feel clearly isn't what other people think and feel and, as much as YT success does require a bit of luck, after a year of doing what you're doing, it's clearly not working, it's time to re-evaluate and change course.
Change your mindset first, you are in a table-flip mode, that will get you nowhere. Second, change your style, your delivery, heck, change your topics and see what happens. A lot of breakthroughs happen "on accident", but those accidents only happen when you make significant changes to anything and everything you're doing. In other words, start experimenting. Third, invest some time into understanding YT as a platform - the algorithm, what other channels are doing, what your competitors are up to. Do not be afraid to flip everything upside down, change your video lengths, your thumbnails, your video structure, your way of talking, your recording setup if you're doing camera work, everything...
All of this info is available for free on YT itself, you don't even have to pay anything, you just have to be willing and open to different ideas, learning and changing whatever you're doing wrong or sub-optimally.
Good luck and always keep uploading.