One thing I notice is that there is something incredibly humbling about not being featured on Youtube Rewind. They have cons with Youtubers now, and if you go you'd be considered just another con-goer and not one of the 'creators'. Do you even feel as if you're part of the so-called Youtube Community? It just hit me that the Youtube Rewind videos are almost alienating, with only a handful of people we even know or have heard of. It almost feels as if Youtube is some other major streaming service for the top guns and all we're doing are just randomly uploading our personal home movies on some random no-name video archive. I mean I honestly can't believe I'm uploading videos on the same site where Markiplier and MatPat upload their own. I feel as if I should just call myself a Youtube user and not an actual creator or even a Youtuber. I don't know, sometimes I feel I'm acting in a school play while Pewds is starring in a blockbuster movie.
It's odd, like I don't want fame cause the last thing I'd ever want are stalkers and fake scandals and whatnot, but if I ever do quit Youtube, I kinda liked to be remembered as one of the guys there. Or if Youtube ever goes down, I'd like whatever news station reporting it to mention me among the others that were big there. I know Youtube is a vast place, but man, it really does make one feel small. Who would honestly give a crap if any of us small channels suddenly quit? And if noone remembers or cares, is it even worth continuing?
