I'm Gonna Be Myself From Now On

[AYRENvids]

We're so similar. I feel like such a goofy dorky loser alot of the times. But people tell me I'm a rock star and I'm this inspiring amazing guy. I also feel like I'm lazy and procrastinate on everything, people tell me I accomplish a ton and I'm a hard working go getter. Weird how that works... I think we need to accept our shmexiness Kelly, we're shmexy we just don't know it....

Every time people tell me good things like that, I feel just like... WOW. People actually think those things of me??? It feels so weird.
When I was younger and I didn't have youtube, I always felt like a loser, like I was nothing. But now this... tremendous changes in my life.
I used to ask confident people how the hell did they become confident, and they all just said they had this point in their lives where everything changed, they suddenly stopped caring about what people thought of them... and I never understood what they were talking about. I get it now.

 

[Symph]

Every time people tell me good things like that, I feel just like... WOW. People actually think those things of me??? It feels so weird.
When I was younger and I didn't have youtube, I always felt like a loser, like I was nothing. But now this... tremendous changes in my life.
I used to ask confident people how the hell did they become confident, and they all just said they had this point in their lives where everything changed, they suddenly stopped caring about what people thought of them... and I never understood what they were talking about. I get it now.

Well not just that. I think confidence comes from surviving failure. Like, the more times you experience the things you think will be the end of the world, and then go "wait... that wasn't so bad... I totally survived" the next time you're avoiding whatever it is you're gonna be like "well it's not as bad as I thought, I've been through it before" Thats' why I think confidence comes from forcing yourself out of your comfort zone and doing things you're nervous to do.

What we tend to WANT to do, is to find a way to get unnervous and we refuse to do these things until a time when we're not nervous about them. News flash, that time isn't coming until you do it WHILE nervous. Be it asking out a girl, playing a rock concert, making youtube videos, whatever it may be, you just gotta do it WHILE nervous. And one of two things happens. Either you think you failed but everyone tells you you did well, which makes you go "oh wow... I guess nerves don't prevent me from doing well!" OR, you DO fail, and some people will hate on you but others will admire you for trying. Then when you see that while there were soem douches who picked on you, there were also people who were like "Hey good effort! I think you're on your way!" You go "hey.. maybe people don't scrutinize me to the degree I thought... falling on my face isn't THAT bad"

And the more you do this, the more confident you get!