Thank you for visiting my channelI've just watched some of your videos and honestly you come across as very confident.
Whilst people like PewDiePie are very eccentric and loud, it's not everyone's taste and lots of people prefer slightly less screamy content. For example, people that watch your content are more likely to be more mature and prefer less screaming.
You're on 500 subs and your content looks very good, so stop beating yourself up and look towards reaching the 1k mark
Yea man, I really hope that I could cure and get rid of this disease entirelyThere are so many ways to get big on YouTube. You don't have to be the next Logan Paul or Pewdiepie you can be the next videogamedunkey or the next cinemasins, etc. You don't have to give your audience anything about you really. Just do what you like and don't care what anyone thinks. If you really enjoy it, you will find so much fulfillment in doing it and maybe one day you can get out of your introversion.