Wow, thank you so much! That truly means a lot to me. I do also agree that a lot of Christians are appearance based and focus on superficial matters, and also feel that my interpretation is unique when compared to other Christians. And I often feel like an outcast for it and feel as though other Christians may perceive me as not being a true Christian or trying to be like the world, when that is not the case at all. So I definitely feel you on that. I believe that hell is separation from God and all that He is. God is love, God is good, etc. so if a person is separated from God, they are separated from those things as well--and that, at the end of the day, what I see Hell as. I do believe that hell exists, but have also looked into the belief of hell not being eternal as well and it is interesting and I see how that interpretation is made as well. Ultimately, I try not to focus or really even think about hell--I believe that hell has no place in a relationship with God. Often, Christians use hell as a way to strike fear into others in an attempt to use that fear as a way to get them to give their lives to Christ. However, a fear-based relationship is not the kind of relationship that God wants with us, nor should it be the kind we have with Him. What helped me to get closer to God and to have more trust in Him was letting go the fear of hell--to stop thinking and worrying about it and to use that energy to focus on my relationship with God, as well as finding out who God is. I encourage all Christians to do this--to stop caring, worrying and obsessing about hell (no matter what the interpretation of it is) and to focus on loving, serving and being an image of God. If we are doing that, we will be okay.
I also take all of the scriptures regarding love very seriously--the 1st and 2nd commandments--which are about love, are said to be the greatest. The most important thing is love. Love of God and love of those around us. Love is a very essential part of being a Christian.
I agree with this to some extent--I believe that those who love are on that right path, and in a sense, are in a relationship with God since He is love. But it still indirect. It is not until they have accepted Jesus Christ as their savior and opened their heart to God and the Holy Spirit, that the relationship can truly take root and form. It is through the conscious decision to enter into a relationship with God that solidifies this relationship, that helps them to get to know God--what He's all about--and who they are in Him. I wholeheartedly agree that those who refuse to love do not truly know God as well as they think they do, and are not in a genuine relationship with Him. I feel that if you are in a genuine relationship with God and are allowing yourself to be an image of Him, then you will be overflowing with love.
My beliefs do the same thing, lol. I think what a lot of Christians forget is that a good amount of us are simply trying to love God, follow Him and love others. They forget that God did not create us to be a monolith--we are each unique and different, yet joined by the love of God, the acceptance of Jesus Christ as our savior and the fact that we are His children. While correction is sometimes needed, difference does not automatically equal sin. It may simply be a difference and difference is okay. And some of the bible, in my opinion, is open to interpretation and how it is applied to our lives is also open to interpretation--each Christian is able to go to God and be guided by the Holy Spirit on how to deal with certain matters, and since we are different people, the answers may be different. For example, drinking alcohol in general is NOT a sin--drunkenness is. However, some Christians will go around saying that drinking alcohol at all is a sin and look down upon those who drink--even if they are not drunk. While it is perfectly okay for a Christian to choose not to drink if that is what their heart and spirit call them to do, I believe it is also perfectly okay for a Christian to drink (as long as it's not to the point of drunkenness or excess) if their spirit and heart are at peace with it.
I am so glad and thankful that you shared this with me. I can totally relate to what you deal with when it comes to Christianity and know that there are others who feel the same way. I really do enjoy conversations like these and feel like more of them need to be had. I hope my thoughts on this serve you in a positive way.