As usual, I agree with @Crown here. I see so many people who start channels, then go on long hiatuses, or take long breaks, or say they don't have any ideas, or don't want to take the time to research trends, or promote themselves, or reach out to the community, or anything. I'm always curious about people who say they want to make it on YouTube, but don't do the bare minimum required to build a channel, build an audience, or grow. It's one of the things about working in a creative field that doesn't happen elsewhere. People don't say, "It's my dream to be a doctor, why am I not a doctor yet?" if they haven't attended medical school, so why do people who say, "I've always wanted to be a writer" refuse to write, or those who say, "I want to be a famous YouTuber" make no videos? I think because the arts seem easy, for some reason, but there's a ton more effort required. This isn't specifically about you, original poster, but it is something I see a lot of. You gotta do the work if you want to achieve the dream.