Thank you for your elaborate reply Zenvious! You make some good points. I'll try to not let the negativity affect me. I just find it so weird that people don't realize how much work it is to shoot videos, to edit and to maintain a channel. I mean, I know what I'm getting into, but how can other people miss this? n.n"
As a qualified teacher (who has given up on that industry), I can share your confusion of "how do they not get this?" Believe me, meeting multiple students and asking how they don't know some basic sentence structure at a high school level is mind blowing
Some people won't understand it. Even I, who consider myself a rather deep intellectual, will admit I don't know all of what I want to know. I would love my channel to grow faster, and I'm trying new methods to do so, but I clearly haven't found the missing ingredient I need to go from here to there at a more accelerated pace.
I certainly don't encourage comparisons of self to others, but I do encourage comparisons of self to personal past. Focus more on what you have done to develop yourself over what others have achieved.
In the 2.4 years I've been uploading, I have learned:
- How to use Audacity to improve Vocal Quality
- What SEO stands for
- How to improve my SEO (.... somewhat... still lacking in this area)
- How to setup a greenscreen
- How to use Chromakey in Premire Pro
- That there is a difference between Chromakey and Ultrakey
- How to create Thumbnails
- Why you don't want details in the lower right corner of a Thumbnail (stupid timecode)
- What games I like to play publically
- How often I used to say "ummm" and "ahh"
- How to STOP saying "ummm" and "ahhh" so often
- What the FX symbol in Photoshop is for
- HOW AWESOME USING THE FX SYMBOL IN PHOTOSHOP IS FOR MAKING THUMBNAILS EVEN BETTER
- How many good people are out there trying to do the same
- How good I am at playing video games
- How good I am at making up stories and puns
And a pile more...
Focus not on what you've not yet achieved, and look instead on what you've done. If you feel its not enough, ask yourself "what could I do to make this better?" and then go out and find out how to achieve that improvement.
Point is, yes negativity exists. I even suffer depression and anxiety. I doubt my work ALL the time! And atop that, I get people sending me trolling comments of "you should be more like pewdiepie" and "you're over 30 and do this? you should review you life" and the most recent "using a frame on your video is a no go. Don't do it" (that last one was from someone who hasn't even uploaded anything!).
Being someone who is even gaining some level of success in youtube will gain you envy from other people. The headspace is essentially "how DARE you prove to me that you are brave enough to do something I'm to scared to even attempt!"
Try to see the negativity for what it is. Its not you. If you are making work you are proud of, you'll find people who appreciate what you do. Its all a matter of time, patience, and perseverance