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- Oct 12, 2016
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So, one of my biggest flaws is that I'm terrible at socializing. It's draining and I've never been good at it. Through text, I can talk fine because that's just my mind venting, you know? It's like talking to yourself, but you get a response. It gives you time to think and let your ideas flow in front of your very eyes. It's weird to explain.
Whenever I talk to people, I'm just terrible at it. In a one on one situation, I can be competent enough to carry on a conversation. I'm not sure what it is. Perhaps it's because I know I have the person's absolute attention and have confidence in my socialization skills because they aren't leaving or looking for other people to talk to. I still get drained of energy of overtime, however.
But when I'm in groups.. I can barely speak at all. I feel as if no one wants to talk to me, and that there's no talking space whatsoever. It's like no one gives me a chance because I'm bad at socializing. And I don't think it's even intentional, either. I think it's just because I lack the social skills to feel comfortable in those situations. And then after the group conversation is over, even though I barely speak, if at all, I feel absolute crap. I feel like I just got falcon punched right in the crotch.
So, when it comes to doing collabs, especially group collabs, I can't really hold a stance. I can't really contribute to the group. It's like I'm an extra in a movie. It wouldn't make a difference if I was there or not.
I was wondering if anyone else had a problem similar to this and/or had any advice on what I could do. I know collabs are a huge part of YouTube. YouTube's a community. You can't make it on your own. You need to network. So, I'm just kinda screwing myself over with this flaw of mine.
Whenever I talk to people, I'm just terrible at it. In a one on one situation, I can be competent enough to carry on a conversation. I'm not sure what it is. Perhaps it's because I know I have the person's absolute attention and have confidence in my socialization skills because they aren't leaving or looking for other people to talk to. I still get drained of energy of overtime, however.
But when I'm in groups.. I can barely speak at all. I feel as if no one wants to talk to me, and that there's no talking space whatsoever. It's like no one gives me a chance because I'm bad at socializing. And I don't think it's even intentional, either. I think it's just because I lack the social skills to feel comfortable in those situations. And then after the group conversation is over, even though I barely speak, if at all, I feel absolute crap. I feel like I just got falcon punched right in the crotch.
So, when it comes to doing collabs, especially group collabs, I can't really hold a stance. I can't really contribute to the group. It's like I'm an extra in a movie. It wouldn't make a difference if I was there or not.
I was wondering if anyone else had a problem similar to this and/or had any advice on what I could do. I know collabs are a huge part of YouTube. YouTube's a community. You can't make it on your own. You need to network. So, I'm just kinda screwing myself over with this flaw of mine.